Were you ever happy with me as you girlfriend or were you always wanting someone else? Did I really scare you about staying together for awhile that you had to lie to me? were you that scared of the truth that you had to lie to get what you wanted? are you trying to win her over by doing all of this? i have never seen you do this much for your friends. why wasn't i treated that way? was i just an object? or did you really mean all those sweet words you said to me? Damn you for stealing my heart. i swear one day i will stand on my own. i will shove it in your face that im happy without you. that you were just a page in my book. that i no longer hold this bitterness within my heart. one day....in the future. until that day i shall lay on my bed and remember that happy moment i fell in love with you. that you became someone so special im willing to risk my health now over you. i lose sleep and no longer enjoy laughing since you stepped on my heart and spit in my face. i hope that she makes you happy because you threw away a relationship along with a friendship for her. i hope you wake up one day 5 years from now say shit i lost the most amazing person. by then i will have moved forward and away from you. far away from your lieing ass. you failed at proving to me that you were different. why couldn't you have told me the truth? that you didn't want me. you wanted her because she was more like you and i was just a temporary girl. and you had the nerve to use me for one night lieing to my face. i hope your life sucks without me in it. and you get all you ever wanted and you aren't happy. i want to be able to wake up one day without feeling my pillow wet from my tears. and maybe one day i will get there. i hope you are ok with your choices you made because you know that im not happy and was willing to fight. but i guess thats the key. you never cared enough to fight for us. for me. you just used the excuse because you liked her you will become attached to anyone even if its just as friends. and i should have been able to read the signs. i feel stupid for not realizing it and feel ashamed for even trying to mend things. i hope your ok that YOUR choices made this friendship fall apart. i guess i wasn't worth that for you. i wasn't worth trying to save the friendship. 3 years of moments you will just forget but will forever be engraved in my mind. your body and belongings can be swept away out to sea but i wish your memories would go with you. instead they are left in my mind. i am left alone with them, and memories do no justice to the friendship that went with you.
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