The great escape

I was standing on my corner working and holding my sign. it was one of those days where the weather was so perfect. the sun was out and it wasn't too hot, though it was a bit windy. my ipod was on full blast as it normally is when im working to block out the world for four hours. one of my favorite songs, "the great escape" by boys like girls, came on and i started to dance around. i listened to those well thought out words, and i want to ask the writers had he known my life and written the song about my thoughts and what i have been through...but i know its not true and there are many others out there that feel the exact same thing. anyways there was this one night that i wish i could have back now, but i know i can't beside the point. we were listening to this song and my best friend reminded me that the words to this song have so much meaning.

"throw it away, forget yesterday"

i have been allowing myself to remember so much of my past lately and the mistakes i made and the choices that were made and the consequences now i must accept. i listened to the song the while i was working and i was brought back to remembering to throw it all away. and to move forward. i want to be able to move forward in my life and no longer lean on my past. yeah i made mistakes and made good choices too, but those are yesterday. they aren't today. i want to make my escape from my past and be able to be ok with the choices i made. i am living out the consequences of someone else's choice currently and that makes me mad because it wasn't my choice. im learning to throw away the things of the past. i wish it was an easy task though because i am getting tired of swimming. i feel like i am almost going to drown.

so thank you to the writers of the song for reminding me that i need to make my escape and throw it away, forgetting yesterday.