reality

I laugh looking at all the pictures on myspace and facebook. I look at all those girls that I knew back in middle school. We used to sit and talk about how the older girls looked horrible, and here my friends are looking identical to them now. i guess i'm no different though. i have changed a lot over the last years from middle school. there are some days i want to go back to those days of having sleep overs, fighting over stupid stuff like the fact another girl MIGHT like the same guy I had a crush on, the days of pillow fights and passing love notes in class. i don't want to be thinking about college, and moving away from my friends. or the sad days i have spent over the last 3 years.

some days i wish i had never grown up. that i had lived in a glass box and was never introduced to the real world. but i can't undo it now. i must wake up every morning and face the realities thrown at me by the world. the reality that I am expected to attend college, the reality I have no money for college, and the hardest reality, seeing someone i used to love and wishing to forget. but i can't seem to erase him from my mind.