hmm

have you ever felt the need to write, yet you didn't know what to write, how to form the words from your head to the paper(computer)?

"did you make up your mind on what you want me to do?"

"yes, i want you to disappear again. thanks but this is what i want"

"ok no worries"

but exactly how do you disappear from the one person you want to be friends with? the one person that you long to be part of their life, yet all they want you to do is be gone out of it. i have to leave them once again because its better for them, that im not part of their life.

hmm yet again another selfish moment in my life.

maybe thats what i should do this year...is work on being selfless not selfish.