made new

There are so many new things this year,

new school

new friends

new schedule

new teachers

new books

but with all the new we can't forget the old

old friends that have stuck by our sides for 3 years now

that old backpack that has made it through 3 years of being thrown around

that old pair of shoes from last year we have to rewear this year because money is tight

and that old hurt you pushed to the back of your mind for the summer

or that old outfit we have to make new for school

and that 2,000 year old Book that has stood the test of time

with all the new things of a new school year, there are plenty of old things. i realized that this is our last year of high school. our last first day of school. the last year where people tell us what to do for classes and control our every minute of our day. its our last year for homecoming dances and year books and for those at Linfield, the great race. its our last year to deal with the drama of high school. but all those things won't matter in the end.

what matters is the fact that you followed your heart, no longer allowed peer pressure to take a hold of you, and are able to stand up for what you believe in. because next year you are going to be on your own. out in the real world and have to do things on our own. no more having our parents help us, or having teachers bottle feed us the answers for a test.

what matters is that you stay true to your faith. and not allow your faith to be put in a schedule and work around everything else for time to pray.

this year is going to be the hardest year for me personally because i have had to change everything. i know that it was my choice, but as i am coming closer i am finding that peace about this. i chose to change schools, and i chose to take a math class where i have to take 5 buses to get to it. but if someone tells me i can't do it, i will do it. i am now on my own, managing my own time, and dealing with my own homework. i have to work through my problems with certain people but i know that if i don't say anything, they won't say anything. im sad to be giving up so much. i gave up the teachers that i have grown to love, the program i no longer can do, and i have given up the chance to get ahead.

i am shaking in my boots right now, because i have no idea what to do. but i know that if i trust in Him, He will guide me and show me the right way. He will teach me to love the unloveable, and forgive those who need forgiveness. He will show me what college to go to and provide the money for it.

i want to have a new adventure, get out of my routine and be pushed against everything to test my strength and be lit on fire for God.