i wish i could look you in the eyes and say everything is going to be just fine. and that nothing is wrong. but we just promised to never use those words didn't we?
sitting out on my driveway for 2 hours just talking was nice. i wish it wasn't about how scared we are or about the worries we both bear. i wish i could say i would be a better girlfriend and not freak out. but i don't know how to be that girl. i want to let you in and know the pain i feel but i love you too much to tell you the sadness i have, the hurt i have endured. i don't want to put you through knowing that, that way you can't fake the sympathy. i don't want your sympathy.
i'm sorry that i turned away from you. I am sorry that i didn't go to you for the help. but don't give up on me just yet. just stay with me a little bit longer and allow me to get into my comfort zone. let me get comfortable with trusting you. i don't want to let someone else hurt me, and i have built the wall. but baby please don't just stop trying. i know you aren't perfect and i am afraid that my imperfections may clash with yours, and that may be the downfall of us. but i don't want it to be. i don't want this to end. i don't want to give up everything for something stupid.
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