no hope

how can you live with no hope. that there is nothing more to life. that there is nothing out there to help you. and that has placed you in these uncomfortable position for a reason. after this there is nothing thats going to happen. i don't get how someone can live like that.

how can you not believe in love? that love doesn't exist. that you are only able to survive with someone. how is it that love doesn't have conditions if its true love. but yet that is what every human does. is put conditions on it. they won't love them if they do this or that. they won't love them as much if they do something else.

what is the deciding line? how bad do you have to be? what crime do you have to commit to go to hell vs heaven. do you have to intend on killing someone? or intend to shoplift? but should a person be punished for an accident, like they didn't mean to shoplift? or they didn't know that they were going to hit that person crossing the street and kill them? should only the truly evil people go to hell? or should everyone who has fallen short of the glory of God that has not been saved go to hell? can a generally good person be allowed into heaven, even though they didn't accept Christ into their hearts?

what about all that terrible things in the world? why would does that exist? why is there a hundred children dieing everyday when there is an all powerful God sitting there. that is the one question that won't ever be really answered.

but of course how do you answer those questions without the tools we are trained to use? what other tools can i use to explain this? google? books? other people? unlikely those will give me the true answers i need.