time is changing faster then the seasons

yet again its time for a new set of classes. i have finals pretty soon and then i get to start new classes.

im faced with knowing my sister is 8 hours at least away from me, instead of 3. she is moving at the end of this month. im happy that she is making somehting productive of her life, but im not so happy about her being so far away from me. i like knowing that she was close by. but she says she will only be a phone call away.

but a phone call isn't a hug.

this past weekend i read through some of my old blogs. which im sure i will read through this one at some point in the future, and remember this. but as i read those older stories, things about other people in my life, they brought back vivid memories. they made me remember some pretty horrific stories. some points in my life that maybe should have never been written down.

our lives are changing faster then the seasons change. people are moving away. people are moving closer. people are losing and gaining jobs.

i wish there was a way to make here, the place of my utmost desire to live, feel like home. feel like this place will be ok even when im not doing things to keep me busy. even when im not focused on school or work. i want to feel secure in this place.

i guess i should just wait for the seasons to change.......