i was talking to someone last night and they were talking about how guarded i am. he asked me if it was a good thing to wear his heart on his sleeve. i realized that i no longer can seem to let myself be vulnerable. i can't wear my heart on my sleeve anymore. my heart is locked high above in a tower guarded by a dragon, surrounded by high walls that is surrounded by a mote with alligators...not to mention a force field around my heart if you actually get passed all those other things. i wish i was not so tainted. that i could just sit with my heart wide open to everyone and be able to say that im an open book. i pretend to be an open book, but yet when pushed my pages swiftly shut close. and i no longer want to be read. there has been very few people to get passed all the walls and animals and force fields....but once they get there they usually destroy me. i can no longer deal with holding myself together with tape and glue. i want to be made whole, but there has been so much damage that i doubt it will ever happen. tape and glue doesn't really hold together a heart very well.
so to wear your heart on your sleeve, you have to be willing to be hurt....if not lock your heart up in a tower guarded from the villains of life.
No comments:
Post a Comment