this i promise

i promise to stay true.

i promise to love you always

i promise to never make the same mistakes

i promise to always support you

week 5 is done. finally got scores back for all my midterms. all passing. thankfully. maybe not the perfect scores im used to. but i have to constantly remind myself that i am working almost 30 hours a week. attending classes. and doing homework. and having a boyfriend. while passing my classes. another week done. another week closer to finals. to christmas break. to thanksgiving break even. i can't wait. i feel like im going insane. but yet there are days im reminded that i don't have time to be insane. i have to keep pushing through it, and in 4 years im going to look back on this knowing i am doing what i was meant to do.

there are days i wonder if my grandparents will be around in 4 years or 5 years to see me walk my graduation. there are days i wonder if my dad will ever get out of debt. there are days i wonder if my mom is proud of me. there are days i wonder if i will end up in the same patterns.

i promise myself to not let myself become like them. to not become so self centered. to not become in debt. to always have support from friends and family.

i promise to stay true to my heart.

where ever it may lead me.