goodbye

this summer has been about getting closure. about saying goodbye to those who i may never see or talk to again. to get one last hug from them. to see their smile once more.

i want to be able to tell them that they meant a lot to me while i had them in my life. that they influenced me. that they had an effect on who i have become over the last 4 years.

but yet a part of me doesn't want to say goodbye. i don't want to leave them and face another change in my life. but i know i have to.

goodbye is such a final word.

adieu, au revoir, ciao, adios.

all such sad words. you have to say goodbye to leave, to be apart from each other.

and such good friends will not be saying goodbye but instead a simple see you soon.

so maybe i will be saying goodbye to someone now, but i know that i will be saying hello to someone else in a few weeks.

by me saying goodbye, it allows me to move forward without any what ifs left. all my questions have been answered. all my tears have been shed. i am walking forward with nothing or no one holding me back.

so if this is goodbye forever, then im thankful you were part of my life. if this is goodbye for now, i look forward to seeing you again.