this year is not what i had planned. i planned a great senior year. full of fun with my friends and doing schoolwork. i was looking forward to a new experience being on my own for school. the summer made me hopeful but at times doubtful i made the wrong choice. but as the school year started i found my peace with choosing this. then everything changed. i was offered new things if i went back. i was uncertain again. but i realized i liked being on my own. my own schedule and having new friends. and im thankful for this because if i had gone back, i wouldn't be able to have money for everything now. and i i wouldn't be able to focus on my school work with everything at home falling apart. i regret that i am not connected with my friends at linfield anymore. they were great girls and i miss them. but we have to move on with our lives sometime. i am experiencing new things. and that out weighs all the sadness of seeing the pictures from what was supposed to be the greatest year of our lives. i will find my own fun. and make new memories. God is going to bless me sometime down the road.
i just wish sometimes that blessing would come in the form of money, for next year.
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