Grrrr

I wish that he would stop and actually pay attention to me. there are days i need him more the anything....yet he goes off and does his own thing.

i wish i could tell him, those days that he isn't there with me, that i miss him. i need him to be in my life more. i need him to love me more. i need more time with him. i know he tries but maybe he should try harder.

i treasure each other those moments together, because they are so few and far apart some times. but all i can do is place those in my box of memories and pray to add more. i hope one day he realizes how much he misses me when im gone from his life. when i leave here and go far far away. i hope one day he wakes up and thinks "i should have spent more time with her"

i just wish he would realize that every moment we have even for a brief time, is meaningful to me. those times we sit together saying nothing. those are the moments i treasure the most.

but of course i can't tell him any of this.

i can't seem to find my voice.