well im sure i have written about that before. but it just doesn't make sense to me.
i mean how much time is needed to heal a grieving heart?
how long before you can go through life not thinking about the "what ifs" in life?
how long before you feel full and complete and not missing part of yourself?
people have said it just heals itself over time...but i want to know how long that is. because it sure is hell longer then 13 years. 13 thanksgivings, 13 christmases, 13 birthdays, 13 first days of school without that one person you need the most by your side to say "youre doing great" or "keep up the great work" or be there for those special occasions...instead of being the one without, or having to find a replacement to fill in.
all because God decided it was time to take her home...that her work was done on the earth. Did God ever bother to ask me? how I would feel having someone be ripped out of my life, without any memories or any goodbye, or without having any control of the situation? No. Because "all is good in His timing"
people have said it all depends on the person, and how fast they heal....what are those people doing that i am not doing? how are they healed and comforted with all of it? what is the formula to make me better, to have things at complete peace in my life?
give me a number of years that i have to wait until it no longer hurts. anything....10, 20 maybe 50 years?
"trust in the Lord with all your heart..etc"
but how can you trust in someone who destroyed your life?
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